Have I done it???

Mon 19th May 2008

Well let's see - I have taken the steps that for some reason before I dared not take. I am trying this out and will just see what happens. Why have I not done so before is a very good question. So many fears, so many doubts, so many unknowns.



It seemed like I was launching into nothingness, an area I had no idea how it would turn out. But would not even let myself explore or experiment. It's easy I've heard so many times but everything is when you know how. And hearing others say that only makes it worse when you are feeling stuck and unable to take part.



Another part of not moving forward was a mental freezing up of what to say. Something deep inside me wanted to be expressed but sit down to type it up and away it would go, into the ether. My insides feeling anguish and disappointment.



Now I am elated and feel so free, just typing whatever comes to mind. Such a new way of being for me, a new begining for my life. Out of the jungle of fear, over the perceived unclimbable mountain, free from the tangled web of lies I use to tell myself.



Wow how good it is to breath new life and new possibilities. My dreams really do come true........